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A personal post

Hey, I thought it would be appreciated if I added a personal post, instead of a "work-type" one leading you elsewhere.

Today I am off from work, 'cause tomorrow I'm working Saturday night deadline.

Mr. F and I are camped out at a free Wi-Fi coffeehouse, which is playing upbeat fusion jazz right now. Mr. F is writing long-hand, his favorite way to write. Obviously, I'm on a computer ... my preferred method.

And the weather is warm and sunny. Yea.

Sun, Sun, Sun. I love you, Sun.

As you all may have surmised, I have found myself caught up in a new project. One which I'm trying not to obsess about. That only leads to burnout, and I certainly don't want that.

I don't know why I'm in such a frenzy over all this right now. It's just my way.

But then, I stop and ask, "Am I avoiding grieving my mother's death?"

It's hard to know.

Springtime I usually perk up. Though this project started in January. It didn't really become daily until the beginning of April.

Part of me wonders if I'm taking on so much, because that's what my mother "expects" of me. She had ssooooo much energy. To live at her level, I usually end up getting really sick or burnt out.

I imagine my mother up above looking down and saying to my dad, "She isn't living up to her potential, that one." My dad responding, "Let her be. Don't interfere. She needs to learn on her own."

As I whither away all these passing years leaving no legacy.

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girl_next_dork
May. 5th, 2007 08:04 pm (UTC)
Hiiii, Nancy. :)

I agree. Hooray for the sun!

*Hug*
lost_tumbleweed
May. 6th, 2007 07:35 pm (UTC)
yeah :)

I've been thinking about you C'.
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