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public disgrace my own interpretation

Last week, I wrote about publicly disgracing myself.

Well, it wasn't as bad as I perceived it.

Without getting verbose, long-winded and inarticulate, here's a brief description of the event:



Some of you may recall my former co-worker, Hank, who never recovered fully from a stroke he suffered in June 2002. I used to visit him once or twice a week in a nursing home, until he was moved to his native Wisconsin to be near his sister.

Two weeks ago, he died.

His body was flown back to GR for all formalities and burial.

The event:
I went to his visitation/memorial service, and the group was about half coworkers/half family.

I was late; the atmosphere was very light-hearted when I arrived.

Our editor got up to speak, and he said something that prompted me to endearingly heckle him.

It would have been fine, but I got confused ... grief was clouding my thoughts ... and heckled a bit more.

Our editor asked if anyone else had been heckled and told the group that I used to work for the newspaper (this didn't bother me).

Later at home, I relayed the whole story to Mr. F, and he was absolutely mortified. His own reaction made me think more about what I had said/did ... and felt horrific.

Turns out:
Many thought our interaction was enjoyable, and one person even said it was how family members would interact with each other.

Our editor wasn't bothered by it either. He knew it was me being me.

phew.

Sidenote:
I got a ton of serious sobbing out with Hank in his open casket. It was good to see him. I missed our visits. And I miss his presence in the newsroom.

Sobbing for Hank; for my dad; my aunt; my cousin; and my mom.


How similar my mother's sitch has been like Hank's. Spending time with him has helped me with my mom and her new life.


Comments

huggscancer
Jul. 14th, 2005 05:44 am (UTC)
*huggs*
im sorry hunny
lost_tumbleweed
Jul. 14th, 2005 06:19 am (UTC)
no need to be sorry.

everything was as it should be ... and i need to purge decades-worth of tears.

btw: Harry Potter's coming out in ... essentially ... two days!
huggscancer
Jul. 14th, 2005 06:20 am (UTC)
*huggs*
wish i could do more for you
*huggs*

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

and its looking like i might get to go and buy it at midnight too
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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